| Location | Heanor, Derbyshire |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 24/11/2007 |
| Date of Death | 24/11/2007 |
| Visitors | 2,041 since 15/02/2008 |
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Samual Colin Marshall born and died on the 24th November 2007 at 22weeks gestation. He was my brave
boy.
All was well up and till I was 18 weeks and 6 days and the hospital rung me about me about my Down
syndrome and Spina Bifida results....my heart stopped....bad news was coming i could feel it. I had
a scan on the 22nd of October and all was well...my baby was perfect no abnormalities...just that
his legs were short. We asked the sonographer if she could tell if it was a boy or girl. She told us
she was 75% sure that is was a Boy. Tears flowed as we met and named our boy samuel.
After that I had slightly high blood pressure and protien in my urine. I was told I would have to
stay in hospital to be monitored. While I was There I met a fantastic lady called Mel, she was due
around the same time as me. I enjoyed every day in hospital as I got to hear my babies heart beat 3
times a day. It was lovely.
With constant tests and being prodded, poked I was finally allowed home. I had another scan on the
22nd November where they told me my baby had died a day or so ago........You can imagine what we was
like.......tears flowed.....screams of sadness filled the hospital corridors.....Our baby had
gone......he wasn't coming back..........
On the 24th November Samuel Colin Marshall was delivered......he was perfect in every way.....I held
his hand, kiss him goodnight and said a prayer for him..............We meet a lovely man who blessed
our baby boy. His name is Harold Jones, his blessing was lovely. Very touching......he gave us a
candle for the blessing of Sam....He made us come to term with what had happened....I don't think
anyone could have pulled a service off as good as he did.....
As we left the hospital empty handed and things to move when we got home it all came flooding back
to us........we couldn't cope with the loss of our soldier.
10th January came round quick. I had to let my boy go all over again....We had him cremated. He was
dressed in his T-shirt his day bought it read "Why im I going to bed when its my mum thats tired" He
had his cuddly toy dog which his Aunty Jean and Uncle Allan got for him, and a poem that his Granny
Carol wrote him, along with a note from me (his mummy) and a famliy picture of his mummy,daddy and
big sister Marybeth on it.
At his funeral Samuels Uncle Pete read out a fantastic poem which fit the bill perfect..It Read:
U WERE SO YOUNG....
I'll nver understand it,
It was so very brief,
Why someone so little,
the hurt, the pain the grief,
At first I felt so bitter,Why I used to say,
God knew I loved you,
but he still took you away,
I still miss you today,
But now i understand,
God makes us and its up to him when he takes our hand.
That was that....the worst feeling ever.....i wouldnt wish it on anyone......
As his birthday draws closer we feel nothing but sadness. Our boy should be here celebrating his 1
st birthday with us. Each night I lay awake just to take time to remember you......
Sean went to see a spirtilist and she told him Sammy was ok and was with his grandparents and great
grandparents. He is growing nicely and is very active.....We are now firm believers in what mediums
can do....theyve let me grieving process so much easier...she told him that my Sammys spirt is
waiting to return to me.
Hello Baby
Hi sweety, Hope you are having a lovely time with mamas and grandads. Miss you loads. It was your cousin sophies birthday yesturday and me and marybeth don't feel too good. Take care my sweety. Love you millions xxxx
A mothers pain is hard they say
A pain that never goes away
If i could take the pain away
I would so no-one else would know
The pain that comes and never goes
A mothers love towards her child
A love that only a mother knows
Comes along and never goes
So as we grieve the ones we love
We never forget that they are above
But every day the pain still comes
To see them one more time to say
I love you now and every day
Until the day we meet again
when God decides to ease our pain
We will sit at your grave again and again
When my day comes then you will know
Just how much we love you so
Hi Ya Sweety
Hi ya Sam, Sorry I haven't wrote to u for a while, I struggle what to write..so I have decided to let you know what me. daddy and your big sister Marybeth have been up to.
Over the weekend we visted Aunty Jean and Uncle Allan (can u remember them Aunty Jean cuddled you when you can into the world) daddy made us tidy the house which was boring.
Then yesturday me and Marybeth Had a lazy day,I didnt get up till 10:30. aren't I lazy......We went to vist Granny and Mick to collect ur poem which we sent with you to heaven....Oh i showed her your memory book. We popped to see Uncle Pete and Aunty Shell, we showed them the book and Uncle Peter wants a photo of you for there private photo album...
Today Me and Marybeth are going to vist Uncle Doug, Aunty Bel, Brandon, Liberty, Lucus and Crystal. Then were going to see Aunty Jean and Uncle Allan's as we do every week........go and see her she'd love it.....she went to medium and the lady knew you....
Talk care my sweety, sweet dreams Love you stacks and thousands.....
Star at night,
Shining bright,
Look over samuel tonight
Love u lots
Mummy, Daddy and Marybeth xxxxx
hi, i couldn't pass by your sons page without saying how sorry i am for your loss. i also lost my precious sam- last christmas day.
i hope you are keeping as well as can be expected in the horrible circumstances.
caroline
ps- have u heard of SANDS? there is an online support forum for mummies like us. its been a real lifeline for me
passer by
i no how you feel the pain of losing a baby is so great' if you havent lost a baby you wauldent no' thats what i say . iv opend a site wings of angels' if you belive in life after death and that your child is always with you please take a little time and have a lookxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
god bless
sam my tiny little man, i shared a night or two it your wounderfull mummy in hospital,i heard your heart beating along with Ebonie-May, now the both of you are together each and every day. just rember us lonley mummies and come wisper what you have been upto x x x x love lways lil man love auntie melx x x x
Hi i am so sorry for your loss, i cant imamgine what it is like to lose a child. you are so brave what a lovely little boy may he rest in peace the angels will look after him and he will look down on you and look after his mummy and daddy.xx
These are my footprints
so perfect and so small.
These tiny footprints,
Never touched the ground at all.
Not one tiny footprint,
For now I have my wings.
These tiny footprints were meant,
For other things.
You will hear my tiny footprints,
In the patter of the rain.
Gentle drops like angel's tears,
Of joy and not from pain.
You will see my tiny footprints,
In each butterflies' lazy dance.
I'll let you know I'm with you
if you just give me a chance.
You will see my tiny footprints
in the rustle of the leaves.
I will whisper names into the wind
and call each one that grieves.
Most of all, these tiny footprints
Are found on mummy's heart.
'Cause even though I'm gone now
we’ll NEVER truly part.
My Brave Little Boy
Sweety why did you leave me, I sit at home and cry myself to sleep. I want to hold you, kiss you,sing to you, stare at you, but I can't. You was taken from me and I can't have you back..All I have is photos and memories.....I want more.......I feel punished that youve been taken from me and it kills me cause your not here....You would have been 4 weeks away from being with me.......Why did God have to take you from me....Its not fair........Please come back to me. We need you here.......Love you my baby......Sweet Dreams
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My silent child
our precious baby,
Close to my heart
I,ll keep you with me.
An important job
God has for you,
There is love to give,
and work to do.
He needs an angel
strong but small,
To shine light on many
and give love to all.
Before you go
I give you this,
half my heart
and one last kiss.
We,ll miss you dearly
that we know,
But by God you were
chosen,
So to heaven, you must go
~~My Thoughts & Prayers are with you all~~
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